Live or Die

Alone each year
Alone every lonely night
Alone with depression
Alone everywhere everytime
Alone inside my mind
Alone without a  proper heart
Alone with a blade
Alone with my own blood
Alone with the things I loved...
Alone in this bed
Alone when i wake up
All alone in this huge world
Alone in the darkness
All alone in my hell that I call life.

Worth taking a risk

Broken dreams with broken hopes
Feeling all lonely he was with a broken heart
Waiting for his love and wanting her love
Scarness creeped into her mind leaving me behind
Refused in taking risks which made my life on risk
I know you can't hate me you never will
I shall never hate you but i still hate the attitude of yours
This suffering and pain never stops and never will until you change
Why are you so resistant in breaking some rules for our love ?
Why can't we be brave to brave this storm ? some guts would help


The days we kissed , hugged and talked are gone long time back
Days we stared at each other seems never to come
We are the same as being dead
With nothing happening it's like the time has stopped
But to live you need a reason and my reason for living is you
Is it the same with you ? i don't think so
If it was you would have found a way to change everything
Orelse are you still scared in making a move ?
So  let's make something to happen rather than doing nothing

If you think about others and fearing them like you do now
Why did you love me ? Why didn't refuse ?
I could find no answer only you could if you are willing to
The day you feel my pain....
Think about my pain.....
Accept my pain
Know my pain
Then you would know what to do.
.

Lonely Times

Alone each year,
Alone every lonely night,
Alone with depression,
Alone everywhere everytime,
Alone inside my mind,
Alone without proper heart,
Alone with a blade,
Alone with my own blood,
Alone with the things i loved...
Alone in this bed,
Alone when i wake up,
All alone in this huge world,
Alone in the darkness,
All alone in my hell that I call life.

Chain Of Lies

You were my true love and that's the biggest lie i have ever said
After all you did the same with me to create the biggest lie of our lives.                          
You and me the fakers of love who never knew what is was actually like
After all of the things we have done, being apart would be an regret i doubt
My fake love do you love me ?
Please remember that once upon a time someone loved you as a......

Listen to me my love my heartaches alot like never before
Carrying this unbearable pain after our split up was the biggest mistake i have ever done
I'll never forget you and your fake love, that will always be so,
Because unknowingly i have loved you as a...........

Now i feel the lonliness, and the never ending pain
You were my little princess and i were your little cute prince
We had something in between us, an obstacle a damn obstacle
Seeing you and him together made my tears uncontrollable
I'll never forget this sadness, this flow of tears proves you the deepness of my love

It's been awhile since we met or talked with each other
It's been awhile since i told you the real truth
Anways would it matter  my true love ? would it matter ?

Phonebook

Does hell  have a phone number?                              
My girl friend went to hell ,
but I need her here today.
My legs hurts and I fell down;
I need her right away.

Phonebook, can you tell me
how to find her in this book?
Is hell in the red part?
I don't know where to look.

I think my rival needs her too,
at night I hear him cry out so load.
I hear him whisper her name all the time,
but I really don't know why.

Maybe if I call her,
she will hurry home to me.
Is hell very far away?
Is it across the ocean?

She's been gone a long, long time-
she needs to come home now!
I really need to reach her.
I simply don't know how.

Help me find the number, please.
Is it listed under "hell"?
I can't read these big, big words;
I am only a kid.

I'm sorry, phonebook,
I didn't mean to make you cry.
Is your legs hurting too--
or is there something in your mind?

If I call my friends
maybe they might know.
Daddy said when we need help
asking friends is the best option.

I found the number of my best friend
Thank you, phonebook
I'll give him a call.
Hopefully hes not in hell too.

Bite Your Lip And Fake It

Each night i sleep i could just think of you
Each morning wake reminds me to see you                                          
Even though we have less time in our hands
You about to fade away from my life forever
That could be the end of my life existence

Tears pouring like rain
Dark clouds an angry sky
Cold temperature with frost bites in my arms
A night of boreness where the dogs acted dead
Shivering in a corner i look,
At the sky for a last goodbye from your lips.

Into the Storm

Rainy day with a couple passing down the street
Nearing winter time they held onto each other
Under a small umbrella counting the stars they could see
Hoping not for their parents to see
Staring at each other between angels and demons
Eyes set on each other with desperation..........
July rain made the world so cold
Hugging tightly with a kiss across their cheeks made them feel gay
Lying in his arms as she wished all day long
Together they ran night and day through the storm
Half moon's light as their path finder
Whispering lips with a smooth touch......
Like the way it used to be.

Staring at a broken cellular phone
Waiting for her call of wisdom or maybe freedom
Listening to a song of internal death
It's playing on repeat, just like you wished it to be
Seeing the dark clouds circling around his head made him feel insane
Desperate to hear her voice through the monsoon.
Wanting her love like the way it used to be

Her head was a complete brain wash
With no past memoriable memories to enhance
Forgetting him was her pain killer for far as i know
Yet i knew it was never like the way it used to be.



Bhanuka Udugama